Hi Warrioress!

There's reason to be disappointed but don't beat yourself up. That will only make things worse and make you want to smoke more. I have found in my recovery it's sometimes easier to do something if I want it for myself and not wanting it because somebody else wants it for me. I understand looking up to your karate instructor, that's truly great and to want to change for somebody else is noble. Just don't be too hard on yourself. We all slip here and there.

Love and hugs,
Tara