I saw my psychiatrist yesterday. I think he has it on paper that I have a drinking problem. I confessed to drinking more than my once a month allotment. It totalled 4 glasses of wine in December and 6 glasses of wine in January. All on different days... about 2 glasses per time. He said I have to not drink at all now. And.. I can't compare myself to the drinking habits of others because of my emotional problems and prescription of lexapro. He said if I drink at all before I see him next time that he will put me in a treatment program. Gawd! Is it THAT bad? I only started drinking at all 2 years ago. I just like red wine some evenings. I feel like I've been blacklisted. If I have to go into a treatment program... I am concerned that it will look like the problem is much more serious than it is. Am I in denial? Is he being over strict? Am I not being serious enough? The temptation is not to be upfront with him if I drink. The reality is that it won't kill me not to drink at all. It would be about like not eating chocolate ever again. Painful, but doable. I feel really bad about this. I feel marked. *sigh* I suspect he put it on paper that I am abusing alcohol. I don't feel like I abused alcohol.

Any feedback is welcome... even if it's hard truth kind.