butterflying, your post made me cry. I know my T won't say she loves me though she said "I love her" when we were talking about a child part and she asked what she wanted from her. She also wrote "love and hugs" on the birthday card we made together. But I honestly just want to tell her how I feel about HER. Love is hard for me to express to anyone except my kids and grandchildren.

I got a short response from my T just now, saying we will talk about all of it when I see her, and to have a safe trip back. I immediately felt so angry and hurt. I had to email again because she said a different time than she did in the other email, and I wanted to lash out at her and say how angry I was. A friend in RL disappointed me today, and I feel upset in general. Then, your post, which is absolutely true! So, I wanted to tell my T what I just wrote above but I didn't!!! I just asked about the time of my session.

I wanted to write that maybe I'll never go back!!! I can't cope with therapy and my feelings for her.