Dear myself, let me tell you what your post says to me:

"Thankyou. She was very feminine, but she is dead now. I want you to pay your respects to her, this is how to do it. It is a beautiful gift for her. I am alive because of her, she will live on in me. She loved people and was a pleasure to know.

I am very used to feeling suicidal. The right thing to do is to give things time. It is my feelings i am ashamed of, it's like a rollercoaster (it makes me quiver with fear and excitement.) I have already killed myself."

How can i help you?

1 I will visit the page

2. I want you to know that i owe my life to people too, my mum and sister for rescuing me from the doors of death. My psychiatrist for loving me and letting me have any medecations i wanted. My role model, Matt who i wanted to be like and believe i could. And myself, for following through with my wishes. I believe we all owe our lives to other people. Humans are inter-dependant.

3. Normalcy breeds resistance. Good for you. Time is invaluable. To be human is to feel, what do you have strong feelings about in your life? A person, certain practices or beliefs, a habit? These things are important to us. Alow yourself to feel, others around you will adjust to your style of expression.

4. Are you scared of rollercoasters or do you like them? Are you scared of life or do you like it? Or both? Maybe seek thrills a little more, if this is what you like. If you are scared, take it slowly and expose yourself to your fears slowly.

5. Sorry, you have had a/some suicide attempts? I don't remember. Chances are you are not dead. I know you exist because you make me feel things. Has somebody ripped your heart out, so to speak, hurt you so bad you can't feel anything? Listen to your heart, it is still there. You will learn to love again. Take this letter as an offering of my love (not romantic love). You are loveable.

I hope this can be of some help.

All my love and take care,

Sometimes