today I was laughing instead of crying and T was laughing too......and I said, stop laughing at me! she said, I am laughing WITH you..... and it is true, I WAS laughing but I really wanted to be crying and hated that she laughed too because even though I said something darkly humorous and laughed I DID NOT want her to laugh too. And sometimes she does that and I don't always like it because I feel laughed AT.....but I need to reframe it so that I see that she is laughing WITH me, like she might cry with me if I cried......