I'm not sure what to call this. But I was wondering if anyone could relate to this? I sometimes get the feeling like I want to run away and have as small a life as possible -- tiny apartment, limited relationships etc. I feel like if I could do this, maybe life would be more tolerable. I call it bare-sustenance living. Maybe I could make enough to put a little money aside, but all I would need is a few pieces of furniture and a TV. Sometimes I feel like life itself is too much. Like there is so much going on and I can't handle it all. Even loving my partner as very much as I do, sometimes it feels like a lie that i can be in this relationship. I worry that I am a burden. I guess what I wonder is if I can handle it - I wonder if I would be better off with this small-living. Taking up as little space as possible in a tiny little non-descript apartment sort of hidden from the world. I even find myself day dreaming about how I could make it cozy. How maybe then I would feel safe? I don't know of more than that feels too overwhelming, or if I feel like I don't deserve more than that... I guess lastly, it just kind of feels like I was raised to "make due" on my own, and if I am not "making due" by myself, then I don't know quite how to function.