It really is impossible, and I'm not saying that because I'm scared or he's taken. It is literally impossible because he's gay. So I'm not exactly his type. I've known ever since I met him, and I've known him for 2 years. I don't want to just walk away because I feel it would be selfish.. He's sacrificed so much time and worked so hard just to keep me sane, he was the only one I could trust when I was really down and depressed and thinking of suicide, and he helped me realize my life did not have to revolve around an emotionally abusive group of friends. He's done so much for me and I'm also his only friend, he doesn't need me as much as I've needed him but I know if I just left cause of my own stupidity it would hurt him a HELL of a lot more than feeling something one-sided.

The feelings aren't that strong right now where it could really do a lot of damage. I'm already dating someone else trying to put my feelings into something that could actually go somewhere but over the course of these last few months it's been steadily growing.. I'd like it to stop.