My Dad is going to be moved to the afternoon shift at work, and the company is going to die with in the year but that's not what I'm worried about. What I'm worried about is that as a 16 year old I don't believe I can take care of my 9 year old brother properly by myself. You can say "You're not going to be" but I am.

My Dad will go on afternoons, 2:30pm - 12am and then he has his other job which has to be completed by 6am. I live with him only so there is no mommy to help. If you can put two and two together, you'll realize that I'll only be seeing my father for about 1 -2 1/2 hours everyday besides weekends and I'll be stripped of a life until my Dad's company dies. I'll have to be mommy, the parent, I'll have to clean, cook dinner, take care of him like a single, unemployed parent while trying to juggle my own school work when I go back. There will be no more going out to dinner, no more seeing my father, no more going to movies or the mall to hang out with friends. Nope.. Not that I did much of that now but I WAS starting to be a normal teenager..

I heard the news, started crying, I can't do this. I really, really can't do this. I don't WANT to be alone, I don't want to have more responsibility.. I don't want to only see my Dad on weekends when he lives with us! My brother can be so difficult, and we're both really attached to my Dad. He can't even sleep without him so what on earth are we going to do!! Why does my life have to be this way?? I can't even cook rice for heavens sake how on earth am I going to be able to provide three square meals a day!!!? What if something bad happened, like my brother got hurt or I got hurt? Why is this happening, how are we going to enjoy life AT ALL.......

My anxiety is going through the roof.. My life is literally over.. I guess I'm going to have to get used to sharing my life with depression as there is no way I could ever be happy now.