Yeah, I hope you can give her some time to think about things. Do you really think you could just be friends so that your kids could play together? As much as you are hurting right now, I don't see how that would be possible without getting into relationship side of things and that may not go so well.

I'm sorry that you are having these issues. I guess it's pretty clear that you and drinking and relationships don't mix. It's very possible that you triggered her or reminded her of someone in the past that may have abused her or hurt her in some way when you were drunk. That could be the deciding factor for her in cutting off the relationship. But I'm speculating.....but then again, you never know.

Wishing you well!