I'm not exactly sure what to do anymore. I've been in this intense low for the past few days. I've just been feeling so sad, overwhelmed, and of course the hatting myself that normally comes along with it.

I convinced myself that like any other time I become depressed time is all I need. Which is actually my only alternative since I'm not insured. I haven't had enough time to get better yet, I still have sometime before I become concerned.

I've noticed when I get into this state of down.....or "the system of the down"......my husband begins to become a huge jerk. Maybe he acts like that all the time, and I only notice when I'm depressed. Whatever it is I'm so sick of his selfishness. He is the second most selfish person I know.

I feel so unappreciated. I do everything for him......I mean everything, not an exaggeration.

He can't even extend himself for me, comfort me, unsure me I'm not to stupid to go to college. I deserve support.......I support him all the time, when he comes home whining and crying about work.

I don't know......I'm in the extreme lonely stage. I feel so alone. I feel like my world is a waiting disaster. I regret going to college......I know I'll never be able to do it. It's to complex for a dumb girl like me.

Anyway......enough complaining. I'll already dismiss myself with my husbands infamous saying..."Get over it", and go on with my life.

Desirae