Hi Atreyu Freak!

First off, I believe you! I know how hard it is to live with suicidal thoughts. They can be managed but with extreme difficulty. If it gets to a point where you're going to act on please call the suicide hotline 1-800-784-2433. You can always call me to. PM me for my number. I used to work on a suicide hotline as a volunteer telephone answerer so I'm not afraid of suicide. I'm not afraid of the intense feelings that go with it. Having said that I am no mental health professional, just a listening ear who has been trained to listen. Please keep us posted on how you're feeling.

Love and hugs,
Tara