I think I know what youre going through man.. speaking for myself, im usually pessimistic, i'm currently a cashier i hate talking to people. Irrelevant? Its a horrible job for me as I dont like to put on fake smiles, so i dont. I hate most people, so I hate most of the customers I ring up. I live in a big house with 4 family members, i can go days without talking to them. I dont hate them though.. Relationship-wise.. i'm talking to my ex--friendship status, but i feel like im still with her. it's also long distance so we rely on phonecalls. it seems that when i wanna talk to her, i really need to talk to her, but at the end of the day i come home exhausted from work and all i wanna do is talk to her. never picks up my calls. in the morning sometimes she might call me happy as ever.. but my mood is like F YOU.. dont even feel like talking to her. dont feel like talking to anyone. dont feel like going to work. dont feel like doing anything.

i see you like COD.. i'm a big gamer myself. takes up most of my free time.. or used to. lately, i spend most of my time looking at my ex's facebook and twitter, wondering why she wont answer my calls, texts, or call me back. even if she has to sneak it (from school/work, parenting, etc. ).. it aint hard to do and i would do the same if there was someone i love and theyre constantly on my mind. maybe she doesnt feel the way that i do..

anyways enough about me. I'm not on medication or treatment. But i like to play around with natural vitamins.. Red Korean Ginseng.. is said to calm stress.. im not sure if it works.. but i take it anyway. sorry i dont have much advice but my empathy. I hope you get through this wall that is blocking your from fully enjoying your life.