i'm on this for my fibromyalgia, and apart from it making bugger all difference, the side effects are worrying. the only worry when i went on was that it is capable of inducing mania. i had one day of feeling slightly high, but no more. what's odd is that the last couple of weeks, i've had incidences of depression.
the med is affecting me adversely anyway in that it is randomly giving me terrible "morning after" effects. at first it was every morning, but now i wake up ok some mornings (aside from the kind of hangover feeling from lithium and seroquel) but other mornings i wake up feeling awful - groggy, i can't open my eyes, i walk into furniture and fall down stairs, i just feel dreadful. these are seemingly random, because i can't think of any common thing that is making this happen. it just happens without any kind of warning.
the other problem is the depression. the last, maybe 3 weeks or so, i've started feeling really depressed really suddenly and always in the early evening, although not every day. i know i don't have SAD, so i am guessing the med has something to do with it. about 5pm i start feeling utterly miserable, people start to annoy me, like for example my housemate just asked if i wanted a cup of tea and i wanted to shout at him to go away. i feel tearful and sad, but not about anything in particular - which is usually how my depressive episodes start. last week it happened at college, and i just didn't participate in the class at all because everything was bugging me. normally i love the classes at uni, so it's really weird.
each time this depression has lifted again by mid evening, but i'm worried that one day it won't lift. i hate depressive episodes, and i've just got myself settled, i don't want to go into one.
i think i've got to get off this medication - does anyone know if it's prone to causing depression?
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