I almost e-mailed the admin guy again. I was sooo close.

I like the admin guy. I wish we could be friends. All this is in my mind...the admin guy doesn't reply to any of my non-admin e-mails.

I like that I like the admin guy. It's a nice feeling. I don't want to not like him. Is it OK if I like him a lot? Do you think he minds that I like him so much? I guess it's not really him that I like...it's more like I like the admin guy in my mind.

It really doesn't help that he doesn't interact with posters. I think I like him because he doesn't interact with us. It leaves me free to think all sorts of things about him.

I like the admin guy. I wish I could hug him, but I won't. I hope he'll let me shake his hand. I'm going to meet the admin guy in real life in May.

I hope he won't be afraid of me, since I like him. Maybe I won't like him anymore after meeting him in real life. Maybe it will get rid of the fantasy to see what he's really like.

I just hope it won't be weird to meet the admin guy.