Oh, my roses! So sorry your support team isn't so supportive, not ideal, anyway! Does sound to me like you might have depression. I was suffering for a long time with inadequate medication. Didn't realize it so much, just stopped caring to do anything. I did realize afterwards that the extreme irritability I had was related to the depression. So now, if I get very upset abou something, I know I'm more depresse than I think. That's my signal. Meds and therapy might help you a lot.