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Old Apr 30, 2011, 12:16 PM
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I hated my T when we first started and was rude, obnoxious, and nasty to him. He just kept on like he didn't notice. I was resisting his help and I was afraid of therapy, very afraid. I didn't want him to hurt me.
After a while, it got better. But, it did take some time. I think it's OK what you are going through. Your defenses are up right now. It's very hard to put that kind of trust in someone when people we loved/love had it and betrayed it.
Remember, if he is a good T, he is doing this because he cares and he has no plans to hurt you. He's been trained on how not to hurt you, too. Keep that in mind. It may make you feel a little more secure.
There are still times when we have an intense session that I leave really pissed at my T. He didn't do anything, I think he's just a safe target for those feelings. So we talk it out and he tells me I get mad at him because he's the one who "made" me recall the bad thing or whatever. Said it's totally normal.
Hope this helps.
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