Thank you all for your replys. It is so nice to know I am not the only one who has gone through this.

Sunrise:
I think part of me expects him to treat/react to me like my family did, and when he doesnt, I do not know what to do/feel about it....

Ladyjrnlist:
I definalty understand about hating my T when first starting.. Long story short, I was court ordered to see him.. and I hated him before I even met him. T and I have talked/laughed about that now.. but at the begining it was a constant battle of wills and much protesting

Online user:
"My T saw that I was angry and when we talked about my family and I was the bad sheep and the angry one--he said, "And you were the only one who is really successful, right?" And it was true! He saw my anger and understood where it came from and that it was a good thing for me." ( I do not know how to do quotes yet so I copy/paste)

This is sooooo... my story too

SoupDragon:
T has told me that sometimes being "ticked" at him is the best time to come and see him, and I can be angry all I want. lol and of course... that mad me angry tooo, I guess I'm looking for a "fight", and he is not accomodating me

Thank you all and a great big to all of you!