((((crystalrose))))
I'm sorry for what you're going through. I've been there. You're not alone in the loneliness.
Are you able to be vulnerable with people IRL? Do the people at your church realize how sensitive you are? Even though you say you don't fit in, I would hope they would still show you kindness if they knew you were hurting.
Did something just happen on FB or at church to make you feel especially down today, or is it just one of those days? Sending you hugs. I hope your weekend ends better than it started.