Just an update. Sadly, I'm not doing much better. I see a new psychologist tomorrow(finally) for the first time in ages and I'm praying he turns out to be as nice as he is on the phone. Especially after all of the hoops I had to jump through with my insurance company just to get the appointment. I pray that I can make a good impression on him in the condition I'm in or I pray that he understands the condition I'm in. I feel totally helpless and hopeless right now. I'm convinced that if most people went through the type of anxiety I have when it's at my worst(including people here), They wouldn't know what hit them. Yes, it's that scary. Today I stayed up in this room on the computer for hours cause I was deathly afraid to move. 6 years ago, it was so bad that I would wake up at 3 in the morning and pace,shake and rock until the early evening and then it would start again at 3:00 in the morning the next day. This went on for 3 months and endless searching for therapy and a final trip to the hospital then, a psychiatric facility for 2 weeks where there are nothing but insensitive staff,crappy shrinks and social workers who are nasty and cold. When the anxiety is as bad as I mentioned above, the last thing on a person's mind is weaving baskets and being waken up at 6:00 in the morning. I pray that I, or anyone here never has to go through anything like that again(if you have before).
Pray for all of us.
Thank you.
Sherri