I just suddenly feel so unbelivebly lonely. It drives me crazy being on my own like this. Sure I have my brother and my mum but they're not always around and I'm sure they don't want to spend all day with me.

I miss seeing my friends. I have two best friends which I don't see very often anymore since we left high school. They're too busy and their parents are pretty strict. Other then them I have maybe one other true friend but the last time I saw her was nearly a year ago. We don't speak that often either anymore. Then there's all my other old friends.. I'm not sure I can class most of them as friends anymore.. we haven't spoken in forever. I guess thats partly my fault but I just feel like they didn't like me that much. I was just a nuscience to them.

Some days I just get like this. I want someone to chat to and to hug me but there's never anyone and I feel like crying so much. I can't handle all this sometimes.

My mood is pretty much all over the place nowadays. I switch from being alright to sad to angry to lonely then back to being okay again. It's just wearing me out. I don't even know whats wrong with me anymore. I just feel so stupid for being like this.