my urge right now (the urge that I am noticing but not acting upon, for the record) is to call or email her and tell her that I am done, I quit. It is like I can't tolerate being in this middle space any longer. I don't want to quit, but I would rather do that than be in limbo and not knowing what is going on. If I quit now, it will be done, I will know it is over, and I can move on. Instead I am stuck wondering and waiting, and unable to turn off my mind, so thinking thinking thinking thinking about T and what went wrong and what she said and what I wish I could say right now, etc etc etc.