(((((Rebecca))))))

not sure if this makes things better or not but your friends will probably worry if you tell them or not. It's probably obvious that something is going on. I'm not saying you should tell them about the suicidal thoughts - nor am I telling you not to. Just saying, that you shouldn't feel bad for worrying them. It's not your fault it really isn't. And it won't be this way forever.

Besides, depending on the friend they may appreciate it. Keep in mind I think you need to choose carefully, but as a friend I would be both upset that you were not doing well but also glad that you felt safe enough to tell me. If you tell someone probably would be good to give them some direction though because it's a hard thing to understand.

i think I know the thoughts you're talking about , I've had them before. No fun. Just make sure you keep an eye on it and keep fighting it - the thoughts are not true, you shouldn't listen to them *hugs*