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Originally Posted by LydiaB
I agree with Pegasus... this is your T's issue... are you saying this T is not expert with DD?
No he's not. But it's not his fault, it's my fault. I decided to push people away. I decided to let it happen. I decided to do exactly this time what I do every time. It's my fault. I could be more open. I could have done something else. I could have NOT told him about what was going on, what she was saying. I could have been more in control. It's my fault. I did this. I went to therapy. I let him get close to me. It's my fault.
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Sorry, this is not your fault... there is no "fault" for a patient who is going to therapy to become better. I won't go into a myriad of ideas I have as to why you feel this way, but most assuredly if the T couldn't handle the dx, then the T should have referred you , or sought personal help in self educating about the best way to help you. Yes, those with DID do need to feel their T is a protector in a way... but not to any extent that T takes over for your own personal protector... we all have those parts of us, whether DID or not...
Please stop telling yourself these things. Yes, this is not a good place to be, but you can get through this... look at how your system has functioned in keeping you alive and all till now...and can continue to do so.
Now, are you in communication with the rest of your system...do you journal, have other parts of yourself voiced any concern or decisions as to what they think you need to do?
Please do discuss this fully with your T, but don't give the blame on yourself...try not to blame anyone...and see what your T can offer.
