Thanks all. My T and his partner do have virtual reality set-up in another room... but I've even become "unglued" when the partner used it with one ofhis patients (some part of the flying phobia thing... guess the engine start up? Can trigger me if I'm near it (in hallway.)

I don't think they have rainstorm scenario but the flight one would help my "normal" ptsd... and allow me to learn to handle my fear when flying.

I didn't used to have such fears, before accident. In fact, I have 8 hours PIC. (pilot in command) grrrrr

I've passed up many things due to my inabilities from the accident...

For some reason, I'm making this event the "do or die" issue.... when, in reality, it's just another thing I might have to pass up. Wish it wasn't time-valued, but it is. I'll talk to T tomorrow and let him think about it (unless he already has an answer for me...in session.)

There's no one to travel with right now..at least no one IRL... but there might be others in the organization. It's a long shot, as few would not be able to take the level of seminar I would..and then wouldn't be going the same week. Plus ppl from around the nation vie for a slot.

Part of the issue is, I haven't secured a motorized wheelchair yet... and planned to do that last year (but with all the hurricanes, I was too stressed to even balance my checkbook etc..) I haven't traveled WITH one before either. I have no choice now.

I'm wondering if my dog would take that opportunity to pass on...you know? While I'm away... If he lasts til then... that could be good and bad.

The seminar is in the west, and at a higher elevation than I'm used to. I can lose the possible 10 lbs "over weight" to be sure of easier time of it.. I don't feel that is a problem... but I've had more respiratory problems of late.

My MD has to sign a health form. That has been done before for a local activity... it goes into my record and the insurance company gets a copy.

There would be no one on site (at seminar) who would know how to help me... though I trust they would be understanding. They do have a place on the acceptance form about ppl with disabilities.

I'm high maintenance. There's just so much that would be stressful, different... and even good stress can crush me.

I'm trying to make this a decision maker event. Time to ask questions about whether I would ever be better in the future, or do I try this now. I know the answer to that, it's the other answer I don't want: that I can't do it now, nor in the future.