How am I feeling at this moment;
Angry, because I just don't understand some things. Just when you think you do, you question yourself on whether you made the best decision or not. And then the whole time you sit there.back and forth and back and forth figuring it out until it angers you so bad.

because there is no set of right rules for approaching a situation.... it presents itself, you do your best to make the best out of it, but it never goes right for me. And then I sit here and wonder, why .... in the situation if you take such a leap....and be brave...you still have questions about answers given or comments made that you can do nothing about.

because I mess everything up. No matter what the situation is, or what is going on..............somehow it all falls apart and it is either:
A: BLAMED ON ME
B: Told it was my fault
C: told "why would you say that?"
D: "What the hell are you thinking?"
E: "No, that;s not accurate!"
Well, then what can I do right if everything I do I am being told this?

because of the comfort and sanctuary found here

because something needs to save me from myself before I have another complete mental breakdown. I am feeliing so alone....I mean there are people on here with which I msg and confide in..........but alone as in alone in being totally alone. I dunno.

Didn't mean to bring anyone down, I'm just really down on myself tonight and there isn't really any reason why.............it's just so hard being stuck in my head. I just want to explode and be put back together as another inantimate (sp?) object so when someone DOES want to have something to do with me, they can take me off the shelf ...... say what they have to say and then place me back on the shelf and leave me alone/