Thank you, very much appreciative to your support. It's funny how you can find the support you need from people you have never met, or, for the most part, have not even seen pictures of..........yet the ones who are family and friends are the ones you feel so ashamed, embaressed, distant, and alone from. Everyone here is just amazing, truly.

Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time yourself What you said about feeling alone and isolated because noone understands your problems. ... just had this convo with someone on here earlier and I mentioned to him that you know....It feels that way around those who are supposed to be 'closest' to you maybe because they don't have the problems you or I or anyone does and it's like they think well,. "you'll be ok.....take your medicine....you're fine now that you have therapy..." but that's not the case is it? It's very soul crushing to feel that no-one understands or relates. But, in another sense it helps the struggle to look at with the point-of-view that they are there to help, hey may not understand or "get it" but they can listen. Sometimes, listening though is enough, other times not. I hope you can find peace with the problems you are having right now

Guilt and shame are my BIGGEST issues right now, aside from feeling hurt and confused. Guilt sometimes out-weighs the shame, but the shamed emotion is much stronger to deal with (personally). Generally, I just go off and unintentionally avoid everyone. So far, i havenot found a way to deal with those two. I know I am not alone when I am here and that is why this placeis so restful, you can actually breathe when you come here because you know people understand.

Thank you again for your advice. I will definately keep you in mind if I need to talk, please feel free to use my shoulder as well. All the prayers and comforts to you as well that you can smile and be at peace tonight