Hi Lavendera

Welcome to Psych Central.
Yes I am unemployed by choice, but like you, I am ready to get back to work.
I dont think that you should be hard on yourself about the last two years. You needed that time to deal with you and to get to the point where you are at today. You have worked very hard to get where your at, so please, dont consider it as being "asleep" or "blind". We live and we learn.
Take care of you.
Huggles,
Jen