I have a good idea what is contributing to my stress right now but I can't get on grip on my emotions. I've been so irritable, angry and moments of sadness. My angry is getting worst and I hate feeling this way. I just don't know how to handle my emotions right now. I'm in a relationship and I yell and scream all the time at my bf. Everything irritates me, nothing he does can ever pleases me. I hate where I am right now in life and I just don't know how or where to go from here.

At my current situation I am looking for a new home. I just left my parents home where I moved back for the last two months. My father, brother and I have been physically fighting with one another to where I had to call the cops on them. No one in that home is willing to stand up for me and at the end of the day it is my fault on why my brother threw me up against the wall and how he had me in a choke hold. It is all my fault. I left home and now looking for a room to rent from strangers. I am so angry at my family and I am angry at myself that I'm turning 30 in a month and I still dont have the life I dreamed of. I graduated with a BA in social work last year and I still dont have a job. My relationship with my bf is no where near perfect. I am not happy whatsoever.