Today has been terrible for me. Sigh
First off the exam I knew i was gone fluke i did fluke.
Actuelly i could fill in more then i knew... More then i expected to but it's to little and i doub if some of it is correct.
I allready felt terrible after that then came the toughts and talks about the other courses like math and others witch are for next exams (a month from now) and it all seems very hopless...

I got thinking on the bus and this guy he walked over when i was sitting and waiting for the bus and then got on the bus and got off again before the bus left... No idea what he was doing there anyway... I didn't trust that so odd.
I got thinking and i don't know i felt so at lost... I mean like 3 years ago we did a logics test in school and I was one of the best of my class... Now it seems like all the logic has left me... I need to read pages 3 to 6 times before i understand what it says and stuff like that...
I feel as if this all is somehow so unimportant... I've gotto do something... Something bigger. Like i've been missing my faith... Yet i don't know what it is...
I feel so darn frustrated about everything... It's like in powerslave... has anybody heart that song? Anyway i'm refering to the line were a God asks himself why he can't stop himself from dying since he's a God and all. I'n not a God but i'm a smart person... well smart as in not dumber then most... And yet i still feel like i can't make this whole year turn to the good. I should be able to do something about it but i can't and it's really frustrating...
All this time on the bus i've tought that... When i got off i noticed that 2 people got on and went passed and in front of me without me even noticing...

Then i got home... mum means well you know but she just doesn't understand school things...

i just feel so bad now the last thing i want is to talk to people... Type yea but talk nah...