wow, this sounds like a very wrenching, exhausting, frightening experience for you! I don't think you're insane, although I can understand how you would feel like it.....I understand the feeling! I felt wild and crazy and weird and sick on my meds too when I first started the Abilify, but it did get better in a few days. Just started a new med, a beta blocker, it does help with the weird anxiety and chest pain I had, but I still feel oddly nervous and jittery.....maybe that will pass soon too.....
I hope your body adjusts soon and you get relief from these symptoms!
many hugs to you.....