My pdoc said that I was the first person to see her since her maternity leave. She looked great and was slim.

She got into the "whys" of the things I do and tried to help me understand the situations I get myself into. Pdoc1 is very different from pdoc2. Pdoc2 was only about meds. We talked for 45 mins and discussed meds for maybe 2 mins.

I now understand that when people get angry when I post things about hurting myself, it means that they care about me. She encouraged me to write out my thought processes and then evaluate them for logic.

I like pdoc1. She really understands me. I think she cares about me. She wants me to do well. She made me tell the truth. I'd been keeping some secrets from pdoc2 and everybody, but her probing got me to confess the truth.

She's also keeping me on my current meds. She didn't think less of me for taking them. She thought it was a good idea to try the meds.

I think I'm really going to work at getting better and doing well.