I'm not sure what you mean by 'too much' - do you mean you come when you orgasm? I know lots of people say that is a myth and women can't do it, but I am willing to bet it is more common than many might think
It's not gross at all!! I understand how it might make you self-conscious though, and don't have much advice for that... but I just wanted to say it is definitely not gross
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What if you slept? And what if in your sleep you dreamed?
And what if in your dreams you went to
heaven and there you plucked a strange and
beautiful flower?
And what if when you awoke you
had the flower in your hand?
Ah! What then?
Samuel Taylor Coleridge