Greetings everyone,

For a couple of days, I felt hyper, energetic and on top of the world. I was also hallucinating and feeling a bit off...so I knew I was having some manic symptoms. But I didn't care! I was just so happy to be feeling good.

Then yesterday, I crashed. I was so depressed, I self-injured and was having some intense suicidal thinking. Now today, I'm feeling like I have no purpose on this earth, no goals, nothing. I do not like switching so frequently between mania and depression. I actually prefer sticking with one for a long time....at least then I know what to expect!

I didn't know I was rapid cycling until I described to my nurse what was happening. She said she's seen many patients like me who change quickly between mania and depression.

This is more difficult, because I don't know what to expect day to day, even hour to hour! For those of you who cycle rapidly, what do you do to cope?