Which I occasionally do when depressed. I know perfectly well that I'm an adult and I have free will and all of that, so while depressed I just skipped out on life for 2 weeks. I am not proud of that, actually, I'm ashamed of that.

Anyway, saw my T Friday and we discussed me pulling myself out of a group {that I really didn't want to be in--Mindfulness, my second time being in it AND quitting} and she wondered why I didn't at least call. Probably because I was ashamed that I WAS NOT going to leave the house and didn't want to face up to that. I know it's not healthy, but I didn't care.

I also wonder, do any of you feel "accountable" to your T? I didn't see her for 2 weeks because of conflicting schedules and I let my care plan and myself go to hell.. FAST. Also in that 2 weeks, I did nothing productive, but ruminate, sleep, and hide. I've been on track again for 3 days now-- wow 3 showers in 3 days!!, journaling and all of my other self- care things, but I needed a kick in the butt to do it. T mentioned that I do seem to do better with more frequent visits, and I do need to feel accountable.

I don't know why I can't just be accountable to MYSELF, but I think that insidiousness of depression. I just let self-care go right out the window.