I have a question, on those days when you are fine because you have plans to meet someone that night, is that person a potential (or actual) love interest? Love is a great motivator! Still, from your posts, it appears you might have love issues. And, it also appears that you have relocated to a country where male domination of women is a traditional role. Please pardon me for being so blunt but, I think you're living in the wrong place. It's very difficult for women in tradition-oriented male dominant societies, especially if they are on their own, emotionally or financially needy and are not familiar with the cultural territory. What are your relationships with other women your age like there? Friendly? Adversarial? Competitive? Supportive? Are you seen / classified as an outsider in your new country?

What are your thoughts on becoming economically and emotionally self-sufficient before entering into another romantic relationship? Do you believe that it is possible for you to accomplish this? Are you living in a place where it is possible for women to be economically independent?