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I just got off the phone with my aunt by marriage and found out she is planning to go off the dialysis on Wednesday and begin hospice on Thursday.
That means my aunt will live five to seven days after Wednesday. I cannot cry enough or tell her how much I love her. She lives several states away from me and says she will be too busy for me to come visit before the end.
I hated trying to say everything to her through the phone. I wanted to hug her once more. Nothing. My aunt is however, very happy with the decision. She will be putting an end to all of her suffering. She has been near dead several times in the past couple of years and she feels she is not living. Her doctors say she is dying a very slow death with so many things shutting down in her body.
I fear being all alone in the world. I do not have a job or career to support myself. Once my mother passes on I will be homeless and unbearably poor. My life will cease to exist once my mom leaves.
Another cousin will be moving to a nursing home...she is 90 yrs. young.
I am so very sad.
Sad, the next time I see my aunt she will be dead. I guess I could write her a letter.
There is not need to respond to this post. I just am at a loss over losing my aunt and not having a T and struggling to be a 24/7 caretaker of my mom. Overwhelmed and exhausted and scared.
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