((((((((BeMee2))))))) Sorry you are losing your aunt. Wonderful that she will have hospice care at the end of her life. Those I know with experience with this say that it was wonderful for them, to be in a caring and loving place with kind, supportive care and good pain meds fo their loved one. A much more comfortable atmosphere than the hospital. Writing her a letter would be an excellent thing to do.

And how wonderful that you can care for your mom. When your mother is gone, perhaps you can get a job nursing others? You will have tremendous skill from your experience. And you might find a situatin where you could live-in, so you would have income and houing. If that is too painful for you, reminding you too much of your mother and other relatives who are gone, perhaps become a live-in nanny for someone and care for children? Just a thought. I think you are so preoccupied with your sadness and impending loss that you can't think of the possiblities for you. Does your mother have a will? Are you living in her home? What happens to the house when she is gone? How long can you stay there? These are questions you might ask of her attorney. That might settle some of your fears. If you know you can live in the house until it is sold, you will have some time to find a new situation for yourself. You may find that you will have an inheritance that can support you for some time. Knowing exactly what the process will be might be calming for you. I think the "unknown" lurks more seriously in our minds than the actual which is more likely to hapen.