after last weeks session i was really feeling bad,confused ,scared,couldnt sleep,horrable thoughts,bye wednsday i made myself so sick i couldnt even work.thursday i started feeling so much better.i slept thursday night thank god.it was a great nice calm day.friday was ok and so was saturday.in fact today wasnt bad either. BUT now i'm getting all worked up and scared.i dont want to go to T at all tomorrow.why?i already cant speak.even with my husband telling me it is ok.how am i ever going to find words tomorrow.god i hate me because i dont even want to try right now i am really happy with my silence and would be tomorrow in session.the stomach already turning,i cant breathe the air is so thick.i know she will stop seeing me if i cancel and i cant call her just to say i'm scared no out of session contact etc....this isnt helping.why do people say this helps.how?i want to crawl out of my disgusting skin.i'm sorry just so worked up i have to try to calm down i had such a awsome few days