((((((zoo))))))

I feel terrible for you when I read what's going on with you and your T. I can relate to it now because of what has been going on with my T and our emails these past few weeks. It's so difficult when your T is confusing and says one thing but does something else. She says she will be there for you but then says she can't be. I hate when things aren't resolved too!

Do you think she was trying to apologize to you in the long text you deleted? I wonder why you didn't want to read what she had to say, but I understand how confusing, angry, and sad you are. I think that, under the circumstances, you're coping pretty well!

I hope that in your session Tuesday, your T makes it clear what her boundaries and rules are. Maybe then you'll be able to make a decision on whether you want to stay with her or quit. She often sounds like she herself doesn't know what her rules are, or what they should be. I don't know what else to say. My heart aches for you.