tegretol sucks I hate it sooo much it totally knocked me out too and I lost my memory
I'm on lamactil, abilify, lithium, zoloft and edronax....
If you are suicidal lithium is a great place to start, lamotrigine takes a long time to get to an effective dose, the abilify is great but expensive, the zoloft/edronax combo will likely cause a mania if you are not on a mood stabiliser...