My t is very body oriented which I know is a good thing and up until now I've been okay with that even though I don't really feel like I have much of a vocabulary for body sensations. In my last session I shared one of my abuse memories with t for the first time. Before that we had been going over some more ideas for grounding and trying to be more present in my body. Since the session I've been gradually feeling more and more horrible and triggered because I don't want to be in my body. I don't feel like it belongs to me and even if it did I don't want it. It disgusts me. Now I feel hyper-aware of my body and I just want to get the hell out of it and I don't know how to do that without hurting myself in some way. I don't know why I can't just dissociate the way I usually do. I don't want to be in this body