Thank you both for replying. I feel a little better just from writing it out and getting a response. I've been journalling about it which usually helps when I'm struggling with something but with this it doesn't seem to be helping at all. I do have a safe place I can use - that's a good idea. Maybe I can make it a place where I go but my body doesn't. I'm sorry you can both relate. At the moment I don't see how I'm ever going to get past this feeling. I hope I can be brave enough to bring it up with my t on thursday.