I am so glad this thread got started. I am not happy today at all.
I can't turn on the TV and see any celebration. Because I know that it is only a beginning to many more sad faces. I also feel that the death of anyone is never an answer, never really an end. If I look back thru the beginnings of man, well, it was always there and, only continued up to today and will so tomarrow.

When I turn on the Television I can only see the school bus, those terrible memories of such a young child who could not understand what she was seeing.

I can understand what was said here about the pain and sadness on both sides.

I have not talked very much about some of my abuse here. I could talk about it once in a thread about what religion means to you. Even when I think of that, well as a young child, all I could understand was that in a church on a piece of land, I would feel a sense of kindness that I didn't see in other places. I could see smiling faces and I didn't see any angry faces. I could sing and dance in an isle and people would look at me in a kind way. I didn't even know any words though, being that I was only about three. All I could do is babble and sing and rejoice in this kind place. How I seemed to know that it was just for a certain length of time. But at least is existed.

I don't want to see 9/11 when so many hearts were broken. I remember my abusive brother and why he was so. He was different and no one knew what it was. That little boy was spanked, picked on on the bus, and in school and by teachers. He was oppressed in every way. He used grounding methods too. He sucked his thumb all night long, everyone could hear him in the quiet of the night.

No, I can see that someone somewhere is brewing and thinking about lashing out. And, we are only provoking it, feeding an anger. With every strength given to a positive, a negetive will soon follow. It is within science itself.

He was definitely outnumbered in every way. Except for one weaker person. One little girl that saw it building and she knew what that meant.
One little girl that had to run away from all that brew in another child that had to be released somehow. Who always seemed to understand that her fear was not his fault, it was his being misunderstood and how he was treated poorly. How others saw a weakness or something different and they never had compassion only ways of rejection or selfish desire for their own sick sense of control.

Yes, I see it all around, everywhere I look. BUT, I have made a choice. I choose to know that there will always be a negetive force, no matter how it came to be. I simply choose to acknowledge that it is there, but I spend my life with those that try to see the good in life, who search or find a way to live life while others chose to find ways to destroy it, or control it, abuse it oppress others etc. And I have come to know that yes, there is always going to be a negetive, I just choose to find any positive I can and keep it nourished.

NO, IM SORRY, I CANNOT FIND ANY REJOICE IN WHAT I SEE HERE.

BUT, NO MATTER WHAT, I WILL STAND FOR ANYONE WHO SAYS, I NEED HELP, ANYONE ANYWHERE HAS THE RIGHT TO ASK THAT QUESTION.

SO, MY HEART RUNS VERY DEEP AND THAT IS WHAT I LIVE FOR. I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS. THAT PERSON WHO ASKS FOR HELP, DESERVES TO GET IT AND DESERVES TO FIND STRENGTH IN IT AND PASS IT AROUND FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. THEY DESERVE TO DO THAT, THEY DESERVE TO LIVE. THANKS TO THOSE WHO DESIDE TO STAY AND GIVE TO OTHERS. DESPITE THE ONES WHO ONLY WISH TO DESTROY WHAT GOOD THERE IS.

SOMEHOW, IT REMINDS ME THAT THERE IS A PLACE IN THE HEARTS OF SOME HUMANS THAT REACH TO OTHERS. HEARTS THAT CHOOSE TO EXIST, FOR OTHERS JUST LIKE ME. FOR ALL THOSE THAT CHOOSE TO STAY, IF ONLY TO PROVIDE A REASON FOR OTHERS TO FEEL THAT IT IS OK TO BE GOOD. THANK YOU FOR STAYING

Open Eyes