I am so nervous about seeing T tonight after our last session 2 weeks ago, where I became so unresponsive. I can't think. I keep telling myself to look at my posts, at the email I sent her, to sit down with pen and paper and write a little about it.

I want to do anything else. .. I even opted to do laundry this morning.

I don't always prepare, but this time I want to because I do want to talk about the last meeting and I want what happened to be meaningful and help me understand me, the reason I am there in the first place

Okay, so posting this and taking my pen and paper out somewhere, get a coffee or something, so I don't have things at home to distract me.

Any suggestions or encouragement about tonight are very welcome !