I have the exact same problems. I used to think I was just shy and little weird, and that it wasn't really a bad thing. I now realize it is a serious problem and it is destroying my life. This is coming from someone who used to be fairly outgoing. I know how terrible it feels... And the excuses. Oh god, the excuses I make up. It's becoming ridiculous.

An old friend of mine has recently gotten back in touch with me. We've been emailing and texting. He said he wanted to call me and all the sudden I'm very uncomfortable. This person was a very close friend of mine and he just wants to call and catch up on the past couple of years - I am trembling! Sweating! What is wrong with me?? I hate living like this. Scared to speak to my own friends! -Anyway, sorry. Just a little rant there.

I have recently made an appointment to see a psychiatrist. I'm going to ask about possible ongoing therapy / what would work best for me personally. I think you should look into seeing some kind of professional that can help. I feel like this my last hope for a more normal life...