I am thinking of you!
I don't think there is a way to avoid emotional turmoil in therapy if you really want to deal WITH your emotions, find release, find healing, find closure, find insight into your patterns and change them! At least, I haven't found a way to avoid my emotional turmoil.......I give up, really. Might as well go straight through instead of taking a torturous, circuitous route through......maybe trying so hard to withdraw actually makes it more painful, really! Just saying I see that for myself......