Thanks you guys. It was really sad, but he was SO sick. My 10 y/o went with me (I think I already said that) and it was good for him to be there because it was "his" cat. He has aspergers and it think it was good for him to sort of see the process. He cried and I cried and the vet was amazing.

I talked to T. He was proud of me....I totally am SO SCARED of death and just blew it with my dad at the end I had to be brave and make the decision and pick up the cat and take him there and hold him and love him while it was done. And I did it.

T thought I was handling everything really well with my kids, and that was good to hear.

Also, he said he will come in 30 minutes early on Thursday so we can have a 90 minute session this week. He's never done that for me before, but I so appreciate that he is working with me to make the longer session possible. I just want to soak up his caring and have it be okay.

So. My head hurts, and I'm tired, but okay.