Elana, I'm so sorry that you are going through a rough time, and I'm sorry that your dad isn't being more supportive. It sounds like you have been continuing to work hard at dealing with depression and family issues. What more could any of us ask of ourselves, than to do the emotional work involved in facing this stuff? Twice a week therapy and daily 12-step meetings... that is very courageous, and also sounds a little exhausting! I hope you can give yourself credit for the hard work you are already doing. It sounds like a hopeful development that you are considering medication again. My own experiences with meds have been mixed, but I have found that when they are working, my efforts with therapy, job, school, etc.... seem a little more do-able. (Or, at least, I don't feel like I'm stuck in quicksand, which is how depression sometimes feels to me.) Don't give up that sense of hope... and don't forget that we are here for you.
peace,
garden gal