Thanks JD ...my self care is disintegrating. The alcohol is still small amount ,but it's becoming more and more frequent and I have to tell you that it does work...and there are other habits-addictions coming into focus. Are these the effects you're referring to in saying ptsd will wind it's way in and around everything?
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PTSD does not heal on it's own... please continue to do good self care, read about how PTSD can affect your life (and wind it's way in and around everything you do and affect how you respond in the future)... it will cause you to create bad habits that cause much more suffering in the future.
I know that this ptsd is an actual physical change in my mind and body, and it is wonderful to finally put a name on it. I am concerned about whether things will return to normal, ever, but also that if I start Therapy we'll open some boxes that will be far worse than what I do remember. T is on hold for now.
The good thing--if one can say that-- is that once the brain relearns how to file those "type" of memories, it will continue to do so without any conscious effort of your own. What that means is if you learn to process some of the experiences, work through them, you will give the brain the directions it needs and you won't have to go through each harrowing event (as if that's even possible)  Meeting and trusting people are a big issue for those with PTSD...
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You hit the nail on the head, hit the target, meeting and trusting people ... huge issue for me. If i'm in official capacity I just put the meet/greet in my public face department and do ok, even though in the back of my mind I'm thinking about the trivial events I'm participating in, and of course, never trusting any of them.
When I'm not in an official capacity, I just stay away from people. Those who know me are not even aware of my distancing myself when in groups. I think they see that reaction as my being aloof or arrogant. They're probably right.
On the other hand they all see me as a "very nice guy." And every time I hear such a remark, I think "if you only knew me."
Thanks for your encouragement