It's okay to friek out from time to time, doesn't mean you'll be living in it. You'll have hard days, not doubt about it. My mom was diagnosed schizophrenic when I was 7, moved out with my three younger sibs and helped my mom.....I had to drop out of high school when things at home got too rough to handle, my dad totally out of the picture and my mom paranoid schiz. I took a babysitting job full time, and did okay.....there are no words that can make it all okay.....all you can really do is your best? It's okay to fall short sometimes, just set your sights on doing your best....you go where'st you aim. Don't be afraid to ask for help/guidance... I am not hearing you want this taken away from you, I hear you just want to be heard and are frightened at failing. Ya, what you have is tough....and calls for a lot of self discipline, don't do what I did, by withdrawing and going under, don't be afraid to ask for support, as you did here. You did good to bring this here. We all want you to succeed. As was said earlier, baby steps, one step at a time will get 'er done....it won't last forever, and that's something I guess I neglected to see when I was there.....seemed totally overwhelming, but if you reach out for help, there's nothing you can't do. Everyone, everyone, needs a mentor. No one succeeds alone. Let us know how we can support you?